The Life Of Reivers Music

waiting is a severely underrated comedy. so good. it reminds me of good times at joel's in summer, the hangovers sucked though.

i dont know why or how but suddenly after tonight i just know what i want. it definetely helps.
we'll talk.

i annoy myself really badly at times, like right now. right now i am annoyed and pissed off with myself, i know how to fix it but im a fucking idiot and probably wont.

i need some quality me time. holidays last week were good but i was still doing something everyday, i need a couple of days away from everything.

we havent lost the passion, only the dream is over. our eyes are open, we just need to find a new path.

For you I know I'd even try to turn the tide....

for i guess the better part of a long time in the back of my mind i kinda thought good music was dead, how wrong i was and always will be. maybe it was a shitty phase or maybe it was just me not scratching beneath the surface and looking for something better i dont know but all i know is that i was definetely wrong.

ahh social distortion, you always make a shit day so much better. whenever im stressed as fuck something in the music always makes everything better.
this morning i had the worst hangover and was in an even shittier mood but now i feel at peace.

the last weekend of me being 17 is over forever. only 5 days to go, well... about an hour and a half then it'll be 4 days. the wait is almost overrr :)

i just found a little note in some papers from a person i forgot about a long time ago, ahh nostalgia. just brings back some good memories and feelings from a certain period of time :)

Maybe it's my caffeine intake, the amount of energy drinks I consumed this morning could probably keep a normal person awake for days, but i couldn't shake this nervous, jittery feeling throughout both my digital musics lecture and tutorial. I understood everything and found both the lecture and tutorial very interesting but I just couldn't seem to focus. Getting up at 7.45am to get to a 9.00am lecture was torture, I hadn't been up this early since I'd left school and I felt like I just couldn't wake up properly. So my solution? A few cans of each V and Red Bull. I made a deal with myself today that I'd talk to a couple of people to get to know them a bit better as they seem like interesting people and I being my... I guess (for lack of a better word) shy self, haven't bothered yet for the simple fact that I don't want to come off as the weird guy haha. I wouldn't have minded if the digital music class went for a bit longer, it's probably what I'm most interested in.

I also forgot how much of a great melodic hardcore album Exit English by Strike Anywhere is.

19 days until I'm eighteen. This last tiny bit of the wait is killing me haha, 3 months ago i didn't think it seemed all that long and it kinda went quickly but now its just sooo slow.
work tonight was shit, way too many weird people came in and i just had enough of it by 12.00, i wish i was more motivated to go get a better job.
-looking forward to starting uni on monday, im stoked i've got this opportunity. my aim is to take a different approach to that i did at school because after i finished all i was doing was regretting and thinking how i should have done some things differently.
im gonna trade in the typing for some well deserved sleep.

Looking forward to tomorrow for no reason in particular other than the fact that I'm bound to actually do something rather than nothing.
I need to find something to do with the spare hours in the day, although I complain in my mind when I have no spare time to myself. I guess it's all about some sort of balance?

I realised I hadn't written anything in here other than the short piece of whatever it ended up being yesterday. Dale had his 18th just after Christmas, was a great time and kind of a pain knowing both Luke and I still have about a month and a bit before we're 18.
Couple of pics that got from em.





Good times.

Last week was pretty fun, basically lived at Joel's for a few days and just drank.

Showtime.
We were unarguably at our best, for the first time since I began I felt as if people were actually anticipating our presence.
All sound checks were always over within 5-10 minutes. A sense that something special was beginning washed over us, this was only the start.
The room was dimly limly and the low murmur of those both inside and out crept through as we looked out into the crowd. An announcer began some sort of brief speech about us over the PA system as we exchanged nervous smiles with each other. The announcer exited the stage to the right, the count-in began in the blink of an eye.
We were exploding with energy left, right and centre - each and every note expressed both musically and physically. In those fiery 25-or-so minutes our songs that we'd slaved over for hours on end were put on display and applauded, our minds were at ease once again.
Those days were golden, few fell along the way. The only way to look now is ahead.

i feel like a complete asshole.

there's been a lot on my mind the last couple of days, really kind of annoying seeing it's all just either pointless shit, questions or just anger regarding stuff that has happened/is happening.

went to tafe tonight, did some listening test and a questionare for the technical production course. doesn't really phase me wether i get in or not, i've got my fingers crossed for uni.

discovered yesterday/today that desperate housewives is actually a pretty decent show haha.

not really looking forward to work tomorrow, im so sick of the place. there's probably a select few people there that are pretty cool these days, i miss the old crew. the hours i get are bullshit im glad i dont rely on that job.

everyone is at schoolies at the moment and here i am at home bored, lol. it sucks hardcore. i should have gotten my shit together last year and paid for it. ahhh fuck.

wow.. haven't written in here since september, decent effort i guess haha.
things are great at the moment, being finished school and just relaxing whilst working on and off is awesome. got interviews/auditions for uni and tafe coming up soon though so can't really slack off just yet i suppose.

just a few pics to some up the last couple of months...

finished school and graduated today. the graduation assembly was a lot of fun, played a couple of songs, got told how awesome we are, got a gift and then said goodbye to everyone. it was kinda sad knowing i won't be going back next year because as much as you probably wouldn't admit it during the year, it was heaps of fun and i'll miss it. saying goodbye to some of the teachers was hard, especially to miss davies, mr wilson, hobbsy and mr levy who became more like friends than teachers to me. saying goodbye to them was the hardest, especially when they've been the most supportive people at school over the last year and some even since year 9. i'm gonna miss school, ever since year 7 i've wanted to get out of there but it's only now i really appreciate it i suppose.
i've still got graduation dinner tonight, should be alright hopefully :) i'll post pics later of the last couple of days. *sigh*

my mate wonders why i get shitty with him and call him a fucking retard when he tells me and brags to everyone else how many and what drugs he did on the weekend. he was telling me a couple of days ago how much better speed is than weed and was suprised at me telling him that i honestly didnt give two shits and that he's a fuckwit. i drink but i dont do drugs, i dont really have a problem with people who do drugs it's totally their choice. i just don't like the people who go around publicising that they do it and just brag about it, that's fucking stupid and you can totally tell you're doing it to seem 'cool'. ahh fuck it. it's only one person im pissed off with, get your life together mate before you fuck yourself over for good. you're already going nowhere, don't make it worse.

hmmm i've been thinking alot lately about this one point in my life where everything was perfect and great, things are pretty good at the moment but just looking back on that time.. almost everything was perfect. and looking at pictures, you two were so perfect. i dont understand.
bought some fake chicken today, as recommended by liam... 'tis lovely ^.^